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  Renegade’s Choice

  Satan’s Anarchy MC

  Book 4

  Erin Osborne & JC Belanger

  Copyright 2020© Erin Osborne and JC Belanger

  All rights reserved. This book, or any portion thereof, may not be reproduced or used in any manner without the express written permission of the author except for brief quotations used in book reviews.

  This book is a work of fiction. The names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the writer’s imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, actual events, locales, or organizations is entirely coincidental.

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  Cover Designer: Erin Osborne

  Formatter: Erin Osborne

  Editor: Full Bloom Editorial: Courtney Lynn Rose & Rebecca Ernst Vazquez

  Proofreader: Kim Richards

  Blurb

  Natasha Marks

  One night changes everything. I live my life alone, never truly letting anyone get too close to me. With my past, I choose to live this way. Now, I’m surrounded by the members of Satan’s Anarchy MC and the one man who can break past my defenses. Can I take a chance and let Renegade in?

  John ‘Renegade’ Jackson

  My life is changing. I’ve learned something major has been kept hidden from me. I have a daughter who’s almost a teenager. On top of being the President of Satan’s Anarchy MC, I need to learn how to be a dad. Now, I’m trying to protect Natasha. The more time I spend with her, the more I want her. Can I protect my family? Or will they be ripped from me?

  Character List

  Officers:

  President: John ‘Renegade’ Jackson

  V. President: Brad ‘Ink’ White

  Secretary/IT: Paul ‘Hawk’ Carter

  Treasurer: Tommy ‘Chains’ Sampson

  Enforcer: Remington ‘Psycho’ Jackson

  Sgt. At Arms: Christian ‘Grave’ Hardison

  Road Captain: Gabe ‘Smokey’ Burns

  Members:

  Doc

  Ryder

  Tex

  Tats

  Snake

  Prospects:

  Damon ‘Bear’ Jones

  Chris Hayward

  Bentley Pearson

  Bishop Williams

  Ol’ Ladies:

  Callie Patton

  Hadliegh Jensen

  Cassidy Brown

  Natasha Marks

  Satan’s Babes:

  Legs

  Kitty

  Silk

  Foxy

  Nails

  Rusty

  Businesses:

  Tattoo Parlor: Anarchy Ink

  Bar: Satan’s Den

  Construction Company: Jackson Construction

  Dedication

  I would like to dedicate Renegade’s Choice to Kim. You have been there since the beginning and listened to me about everything from story lines to helping me find characters from other books/series. You’re more than a friend, you’re part of the family and I’m so grateful to have you in my life. The kids and I love you!

  Table of Contents

  Renegade’s Choice

  Copyright 2020© Erin Osborne and JC Belanger

  Blurb

  Character List

  Dedication

  Table of Contents

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-One

  Epilogue

  Renegade’s Choice Playlist

  About the Author

  Acknowledgments

  Other Books

  Prologue

  Renegade

  WHEN I WAS nineteen years old, I thought I knew it all. Hell, I thought I had the world by the balls. I was taking some of the weight off my mom’s shoulders and helping her with bills and other costs of raising children on her own. At the same time, I began Prospecting with Satan’s Anarchy MC.

  The men stood for loyalty, honesty, respect, family, and putting in a hard day’s work to earn everything they had. Things I valued and wanted to be a part of. They didn’t walk on the right side of the law and were heavy into gun-running and selling drugs. They would even let the girls working for their strip clubs fuck men on the side for extra money. The club always got a cut, but never forced the girls to fuck or be with someone they didn’t want to fuck.

  That same summer was the summer I met Saralyn. Her family was staying at a house close to the edge of town and we met in the diner my mom worked in. She was there on her lunch when I saw her and sat down next to her.

  The first time I saw her in the diner my mom eventually bought from the owner, the sun was shining through the many windows lining the front of the small building, landing directly on Saralyn. She looked like an angel sitting at the counter, waiting on her food while sipping a milkshake. I fell hard and fast for the girl at that moment.

  Saralyn was short compared to my over six-foot-tall frame, barely coming to my chest. She had long blonde hair with hazel eyes. Her eyes stood out among every other feature. They were huge in her small face and every emotion she ever felt flashed in them. Saralyn was tiny everywhere until you looked at her chest. She had tits that were more than a handful and I spent countless hours worshipping her chest. And the rest of her body.

  We spent the entire summer together when I wasn’t doing something for the club. I took her riding all over Shadowville and the surrounding towns, we spent time at the lake, and I took her out on dates. I’ve never taken another girl out on a date. All I wanted was pussy and I didn’t have to fight to find a willing girl to fuck. Especially once I started Prospecting.

  I even went so far as to spend time with her family. It was just Saralyn and her parents as she is an only child. I’ve never met parents before and I knew they were close and if I wanted to continue between us, I’d have to meet hers. There wasn’t an issue in my mind as long as they didn’t look down on me because of my own family situation or that I was Prospecting with a motorcycle club. Her mom and dad didn’t bat an eye when I wore my cut to their summer home to meet them. They accepted me and welcomed me into their family with open arms. Her family also accepted my family and I fell even more in love with Saralyn when our families got along so well.

  By the end of summer, I was ready to ask Saralyn to stay with me. She could finish school here and we could begin our life together. I was already looking at places of our own and working outside of the club to earn extra money.

  My friend worked for a construction company and they hired me on to help toward the end of summer. There would be work all year long because they focused on outside work during the summer months and then took jobs focusing on indoor work in the cold, winter months. They also t
ook care of snow removal and other odd jobs.

  Before I could talk to Saralyn, she disappeared. I’m not sure when she and her family left, but she didn’t meet me at the diner for lunch and I knew something was wrong. So, I rode to the house her family was staying at to find it empty. There wasn’t a trace the family had been there at all the entire summer. My heart broke into a million pieces and I vowed then and there I’d never give my heart to anyone else.

  Using all the pain and rage I had in me, I poured it into the club and work. The construction company I worked for went belly up because the owner was embezzling money, so there was a job that needed to be filled and I started Johnson Construction. In the beginning it was hard to get jobs because I was known to work for the ass who stole from people. But, once I took on a few jobs and the results were vastly different, work started pouring in. To the point, my brother Psycho started helping out when he wasn’t at school.

  When I was at the club, I poured every ounce of myself into the work they wanted, or needed, done. I am the only Prospect to become a full patch in less than a year. It’s not something I brag about, but it’s something I’m damn proud of. Once I was a full patch, I quickly climbed the ranks and I’m now the President of the club. Honestly, I’m the National President over any Satan’s Anarchy MC, a title I treasure.

  I haven’t thought of the girl who broke me in thirteen years. Not since she left me. Now, I can’t stop thinking of the bitch. Not since our daughter walked up to the gate and told the Prospect she was there for me, that Saralyn and her new man just left her because they don’t want a kid around. I’m ready to hurt the bitch for several reasons.

  I’ve had a daughter, Kora, for almost thirteen years and never knew she existed. I missed out on every single part of her life and who knows what’s been done to her. Now, Saralyn just leaves Kora because they don’t want her. She had no clue if I was still with the club or even here at the time, she left her alone. I’ll do everything in my power to protect my daughter and get to know her. I just don’t have a fucking clue how to go about that.

  Chapter One

  Renegade

  TODAY IS FINALLY the day Hawk and Chains marry Cass. There’s a party atmosphere around the club already as we put the final touches on everything and make sure the chairs, tables, and decorations is set up according to how the women want things to be.

  Callie and Hadliegh took over when Cass didn’t want to make any hard decisions. Hell, Hadliegh’s my sister-in-law and I’m not afraid to admit she scares me sometimes. She doesn’t give a shit who you are, if she wants something, she gets it the hell done. Today is no different. Cass doesn’t care if the wedding is perfect or anything else, she just wants to be with her men and carry their last name before she goes into labor. Hadliegh and Callie have different ideas though.

  As I’m helping Psycho carry tables to where they’re supposed to be, I notice Kora sitting outside right up against the back of the clubhouse. She looks so lonely as she places her earbuds in her ears and messes with her phone. I spend time with her daily, but I need to find a way to bridge the gap between us.

  Kora looks in our direction to take in all the chaos. I motion with my head for her to come over to us. There’s no need for her to not be around us or to hide in her room unless there’s a party going on. I want to get to know my daughter and spend time with her. The rest of the guys do too. Especially Psycho, since he’s her biological uncle.

  “What are you doin’?” I ask as Kora makes her way over to us.

  “Nothing. I wanted to come outside since it’s a nice day out,” she answers.

  “Are you goin’ to stay for the ceremony?” I ask her, setting down the table and giving her my full attention.

  “I don’t know if they want me here,” she answers, a sad look filling her face.

  “Of course, we do, lil’ bit,” Hawk answers, coming up behind her. “If you want, Cass could probably use some help.”

  “Oh, um, okay,” she says.

  “You don’t have to go inside. That’s not what Hawk was sayin’,” I tell her. “If you want to stay outside, you’re more than welcome to be with us.”

  I don’t know what the fuck Saralyn has done to Kora, but I’m going to hurt her if I find out my daughter has been abused in any way. There won’t be a fucking place on this Earth she’ll be able to hide from me. And I will find out eventually what’s happened to my daughter before coming here. Hawk is already digging to find out and get any records of my daughter since her birth.

  Kora should be a confident teenager. Almost. Instead, she’s sullen, a loner, and there’s a deep sadness resonating in her eyes. When I try to talk to her or get her to come out of her room, shock covers her face for a few seconds before she slides her mask back into place. This tells me Saralyn didn’t do anything with our daughter and placed everyone else before her. I’m gutted by how withdrawn she is. Kora should be playing sports or doing other activities with kids her age, but she’s not. Well, that’s gonna change.

  My daughter is a mini version of her mother. She’s got long blonde hair with big eyes. She’s small and reminds me of a garden fairy, like in the stories my mom used to read to my sister. Kora is the sweetest kid when you can get her to open up and she’s funny as hell. But, she won’t let herself act like a kid. She’s not free spirited like Phoebe was at her age.

  The only thing she got from me is my blue eyes. Our eyes are so dark they’re almost an indigo color. When she’s upset, they turn almost black. I’ve also glimpsed my attitude and temper one time. It didn’t last long, but I saw it rear its ugly head just the same.

  As we continue to put the finishing touches on the backyard of the clubhouse for the ceremony, Kora helps us out. She stays close to my side and I help her out as much as possible. I want her to know she can count on me and I’ll be there for her. That we want her around us. The guys have toned down their actions in the clubhouse until I can get our house built. They’d rather see my daughter out of her room and beginning to get to know them than staying by herself all the time.

  “Kora, it’s good to see you, lil’ bit,” Bear says, walking up to us with Bishop.

  “How are you doin’, Kora?” Bishop asks.

  “I’m okay,” she says, her voice small.

  I’ve come to the conclusion Kora has a crush on Bishop. She turns red in the face whenever he’s around and she barely talks. Even less than normal. Yeah, I’ve already threatened Bishop with his life if he goes near my little girl and I believe Psycho had a chat with him as well. She’s not even thirteen yet. However, I’m not going to make him stay away from her completely if he’s one of the few people she talks to. Bishop knows where I stand, and he won’t cross that line.

  “I’m goin’ to head in and get cleaned up,” I tell Kora. “Are you gonna stay out here?”

  “No. I’ll go in with you. I’m gonna grab some lunch and read while you shower. Then I’ll come back outside with you. Is that okay?” she asks, speaking more words than since she’s been here.

  “That sounds good, honey,” I tell her, wrapping my arms around her as we head back inside the clubhouse.

  “Dad, can I ask you something?” Kora asks, flooring me by calling me ‘dad’.

  “You can ask me anythin’ you want,” I tell her around the lump in my throat.

  “Is it true you didn’t want me?” she asks, her voice small as I stop in my tracks.

  “Kora, that’s absolutely not true. I didn’t know anythin’ about you. If I had, you would’ve been here a lot sooner. I would have taken you from your mom and you would know what love is. What it’s like to be your age and free. Don’t ever be afraid to ask me anythin’. I’ll always be honest with you. Now, your grandma’s gonna be here soon, so you can sit in the common room or you can join the girls in the room they’re gettin’ ready in,” I tell her.

  “I’ll sit in the common room and eat something,” she answers, offering me a small smile.

  I leave Kora in the comm
on room with Bentley and Foxy. They’ll watch over her until I get out of the shower or my mom gets here.

  Rage fills me as I walk to my room. The more I find out about my daughter, the more I realize I didn’t know Saralyn at all. I can’t help but want to know where the fuck her parents are and why they let my daughter be hidden from me, abused in some way, and why the fuck Saralyn abandoned her.

  Kora and I are sitting with my mom and the rest of the club as we wait for Cass to come out. The guys are standing at the makeshift altar along with Psycho and Bear. Mom and Kora are talking softly when Cass’s music begins to play. We all stand up and watch as Hadliegh and Callie make their way down. Once Cass begins walking our way, Kora wraps her arm around mine and never takes her eyes off Cassidy.

  Cassidy is beautiful in her white dress. Her hair is up except for a few pieces left to hang around her face. There’s barely any make-up on her face. No, the smile she’s wearing as she stares at her men waiting for her is what’s drawing everyone’s attention to the woman.

  I’m sure Kora imagines her own wedding right now. That’s what all little girls do, isn’t it? Well, by the time she’s allowed to get married, I’ll be cold and buried in the ground somewhere. My little girl is never going to be allowed to date or even look at a boy. So, I won’t need to worry about her getting married. She can keep right on dreaming.

  I sit in my chair as the sun beats down on us while Hawk and Cassidy get married. Kora begins crying when Hawk and Chains speak their vows. Chains may not legally be Cass’s husband, but they include a commitment ceremony along with the wedding.

  “Cass, I knew from the second I laid eyes on you, you were goin’ to be our one. You’re the angel that makes us complete and I will protect you every day for the rest of my life. I love you more than the air I need to breathe, and I can’t wait until our newest family member is here with us. You show us both every day what it’s like to be loved and supported unconditionally. You’ll never know what you mean to me and I’ll never fully be able to show you. Not with the time we have left on Earth,” Hawk says, never taking his eyes from Cass.